wedding dress

This is a great song by Derek Webb.  I hadn't heard it in a long time, until the other day when I was riding around with a friend.  

If you could love me as a wife 
and for my wedding gift, your life 
Should that be all I'd ever need 
or is there more I'm looking for 

and should I read between the lines 
and look for blessings in disguise 
To make me handsome, rich, and wise 
Is that really what you want 

I am a whore I do confess 
But I put you on just like a wedding dress 
and I run down the aisle 
and I run down the aisle 
I'm a prodigal with no way home 
but I put you on just like a ring of gold 
and I run down the aisle to you 

So could you love this bastard child 
Though I don't trust you to provide 
With one hand in a pot of gold 
and with the other in your side 

I am so easily satisfied 
by the call of lovers so less wild 
That I would take a little cash 
Over your very flesh and blood 

Because money cannot buy 
a husband's jealous eye 
When you have knowingly deceived his wife 

It reminds me a lot of the book of Hosea, and um, my life in general, haha.  

Fasting and Dreams

Yeah, so the facebook fast has officially ended.  If I had to blame it on anyone (besides myself, of course), it'd have to be Caitlin.  See, although I wasn't checking my facebook, I still got all those tempting email updates.  So when I saw that she had posted a pic of me, and then there were a lot of comments, I just couldn't resist.  So yeah Caitlin, it's your fault.  Oh well, thankfully I have freedom in Christ!

On another note...what do you think of dreams?  Do you put much stock in them?  Take them seriously?  I believe that people can sometimes have prophetic dreams, and I definitely think God can speak to people through dreams.  So, anyway, the other day I prayed about just that, that God would help me to remember my dreams.  (I NEVER EVER EVER remember them.)  So the next morning, I kid you not, I remember the exact details of my dream.  And it was definitely a dream I'd like to come true, about receiving a letter from certain school with certain good news!

The Shack

This is perhaps one of the most amazing books I've ever read.  It has completely changed my perception of who God is, how he relates to us, and his sovereingty.  It's about a man who takes his family on  a camping trip to a state park.  In the chaos that ensues, his little girl is kidnapped.  After a day or two of searching, they find evidence of her at this old shabby shack in the wilderness.  About three years later, the father receives a letter from from "Papa," asking him to join him at the shack this upcoming weekend.  At first he thinks it's a sick joke, but the more he ponders it, he considers that it may truly be from God (after all, his wife lovingly refers to God as Papa).  So, he decides to journey to the shack, and...well, you'll have to read the book!  Basically he has a weekend with God, battling through the pain of losing his daughter and how that has changed him.  

After reading the book, you'll have to decide for yourself whether you think his experience is real or not.  Maybe you'll think he just had a little bit too much morphine, I don't know.  As for me though, I know it certainly spoke to me in a very real way.  It taught me so many things about the character of God that may seem strange or even radical, yet I know it to be true in my heart.  I can promise you that it will change your perception of God and your relationship with him.  I think from now on I'll always think of God as Papa, Jesus, and Sarayu (the Holy Spirit).  You gotta read this book.  I know I will many more times in the future.

Mountains Collage

I was playing around with Picasa, so here's a collage of my family's trip to the mountains in Ellijay, GA last fall.

Freedom by Run Kid Run

I've never heard this song or the band before, but I'm glad I did because it's pretty awesome.

shoes!

K, so I was randomly looking at shoes on overstock.com.  I would probably never really ever buy one of these pairs, but they are pretty ghetto fabulous...

and um, obviously I like brown...

Whatever Reason-Disciple

great song...

In a whirlwind caught away 
Broken lips have carried you to a place 
Where you don’t know just how 
you ever got this far away from here 
Thinking somehow you could cross the point of no return 
But my love will never end 

Whatever reason you’ve been running 
I just don’t care anymore 
Already forgotten whatever happened with what went wrong 
I just want you to come home 

Incarcerated, borrowed shame 
Freedom was the promise they took away 
And now you’re left with what you find so hard is forgiving yourself 

I see something far away 
Could this be the day to take you in these arms 
and wash all of the wasted days and years away? 
Just to see the eyes of my beloved child 
Now I’m running I’m the one that’s running